Aurora's Palace

Who am I? What Do I do? Etc. (Written in 1996)

I am me. That is all there is to it.
I can honestly say writing the 'about me' part is the hardest thing to do on my website. What can I and what should I tell friends, family and complete strangers about me? I'm in my twenties. I'm a MOM. I love my computer and playing games. My real name is Vangie, but I've used the nickname 'Aurora' way way back to almost 10 years ago when I first started playing D&D (no I don't play anymore). The name was what any character I created was called (usually a female magic user), and I kept the same nickname throughout my BBSing days, its the name I use for my character in any computer game I play, and it's the nickname I use online as well.

Aside from the gaming addiction, I believe I am a pretty average girl. I grew up on the east coast of Canada (Nova Scotia), and traveled and lived in Ontario, British Columbia, and enjoyed a short move and stay in Texas as well. A few years ago I finally returned to Nova Scotia, to the area where I was born and raised. I believe I will probably spent the most of the rest of my life here in this small, quiet little maritime town where quite a few of my close family members live (or live nearby) as well.

I enjoy taking my son out to the park to play. I can eat cheesecake and drink coffee like there is no tomorrow. I love running through big piles of crispy Autumn leaves that someone so carefully raked up. For a living I play games. Well, I actually write about games and the gaming industry (but I think it's more fun to just simply say I play games). And I'm a MOM. That's my career though, not my job. ;)

I am me. That is all there is to it. Sometimes I find I drag myself out of bed, stumble to the coffee pot and wish like hell I didn't have to work today. I can spend all day in my big fluffy pink flannel P.J.s and <gasp> not even shower until the next day. Sometimes I jump out of bed long before the alarm goes off, spend an hour in a hot soothing shower, wake my son up with a smile and a kiss. Some days he even comes in my room, turns off my alarm and jumps on me until I beg for mercy. Some days I don't even really brush my hair. I just throw the big heap o' mess into a scrunchie and leave it piled on top of my head. Sometimes I rub on a little lip-gloss, and other times it may take me an hour to perfect my make-up: first a nice Noxzema face wash, followed by a careful application of foundation, then mascara, eye-shadow, a touch of eye liner. On goes the lip liner, the lipstick, a hint of blush and wooha baby! I look and feel great. Today I'm a sweatshirt and overalls kind of girl. Tomorrow I may pull out that full-length light beige flower print skirt and soft silk matching blouse. I never wear pantyhose... that's a no-no (I hate those damn things, always getting runs, and having short legs it is so hard to find the perfect pantyhose fit).

I am me. That is all there is to it. Sometimes I appear to be in a daze. People have commented on the fact that I can so easily tune others out. Sometimes I just want a few minutes to escape to my own little world. Sometimes I land myself in reality and sit and wonder where the hell I've been to not have noticed the changes in the life around me. Sometimes I'm chipper and may possibly even walk around my house singing. Heck, if the kid isn't around I may even do that naked. Some days I can be a wonderful friend. I can sit and talk to a friend, listen to them, and help them just by being there. Some days I want no part in that, preferring to be my own friend and help me sort through my life's problems. Some days I wake up and feel energetic. Full of life. I go out, I have fun. Some days I just feel like a Mom. I spend all day playing, toss on a pair of old jeans and run through the mud puddles with a little boy. Some days I spend a lot of time worrying. Some days I spend a lot of time being loving and caring. Some days I just don't give a sweet fuck about anyone else in the world but me (we all need to do that once in awhile). Some days I am angelic, some days I'm not. I can be hateful and spiteful. On days when I can be the most organized person in the world, I still can never find my house keys (or a stupid screwdriver).

I'm just an average ordinary girl who likes herself, who enjoys her life and tries to take a break from the mundane routine we call life and try and have some fun. Sometimes I still dunk my Oreo cookies.

I am me. That is all there is to it.